I can never just have a normal night of sleep..

Ever second of the night I get the fucking urge to just blow my fucking brains out..

Every time I try to look on the bright side of life it just goes ..well kinda dark? ya know?

Like I’m running back and forth from light and dark

and light and dark

and light..

and dark.

I’m tired of fucking running

:|

It’s like yeah I could just hold out for something to happen but I don’t know what?

Do I sit wait try to be happy?

Drugs?

Sex?

what , what

I’m tired of my self, my brain is eating me away.

my mind is like disintegrating